My brain engine keeps my body on tract to do the things that it is supposed to do. The neurons (nerve cells) in my brain stem and spinal cord connect the nervous system with the muscles.
My engine jumped the track this past two weeks. The dots and dashes (metaphor) between my brain and my body have not been connecting very well during this time. I have experienced more frustration, more impatience, and more anger over this time. It becomes difficult for me to stop and rest even though I know I should. My ADHD brain just tells me to keep going.
Drowsiness, fogginess and zoning out ensues. My eyelids will start drooping, and I become quiet and slow to respond. Some nights, I will sleep up to fourteen hours, and never less than 10. While dealing with all of these things, I have no desire to leave the house. Last Thursday, I went to our memory cafe that we started. Within fifteen minutes, I was starting to zone out. This morning, I woke up alert and focused and went to church. Half way through, I begin zoning out, came home and slept for three hours.
The GI symptoms increased this week due to the autonomic dysfunction that I have been told is the cause. Balance issues have been present even to the extent of FOG (freezing of gait). I will get from my chair and sometimes walk fifteen feet before my gait will resume to a near normal gait. As I start walking, my gait will often veer to the right.
While there have been a lot of issues to deal with during this time, I'm thankful that my memory is largely intact, and thankful I can still have a positive attitude. There is life beyond diagnosis.
Hopefully in the upcoming week, the dots and dashes will connect! Maybe next week, my brain will tell me to stop and rest if the train jumps the tract again.
© 2016 Robert Bowles
Robert Bowles, Jr.